OH yeah baby! Number two!

I placed today! I can't believe it. There is usually always at least 3 people that are better than me. Well not today. Granted I was 100th finishing but I was second in the old beeoch category and I got a medal. What a feeling. I almosted cried. my time 32.56. I big improvement since aug 1!
I had an asthma attack, and I was over dressed. at half way my coat wieghed so much from the water I threw it off in the mud and kept going. When i got back it wieghed 10 pounds. I love being a rain runner. Good times people. good times.
proud of me..... yep (shh don't tell)
song: The Rocky Theme (what else?)

race tomorrow

Well yesterday i was fortunate to go run outside. my lungs did awesome. no inhaler needed. but my left foot/ankle bothers me to the point at 2.5 mile point i must untie my lace and walk/limp to the finish. It feels better today but not all the way better. I am kinda nervous about the race. I am going to run, I just hope its not agony, or agony inflicting after. this keeps it interesting because at this point I don't even know how i'll do.....
okay really nervous. wish me luck

Come on now!

So yesterday while going around a corner at work I heard: "Is she pregnant?"
SERIOUSLY!?! I Thought I was dressed nicely. In fact one of my more fitted scrubs, so not all lumpy. I hate that. It really hurts my feelings cause I can't do anything about it. At least they didn't ask me to my face.....
I try so hard. I don't get far somedays. :(
its about health. not looks. looks are just perks. i think i need a little body combat therapy, to punch my imaginary doofus people.

Race next week!

Gobblers' Gallop is 6 days away! I am back to my running. My issue is running outside. This should be interesting. I am curious to see my time. I am awesome on the treadmil, not really even breathing outdoors. Hopefully we get a warmer day. its set for 10a so hopefully it warms up.
I don't have much to say cause everything is puckered up, tense and afraid to even speak of the upcoming event. I remain hopeful. And that spunk that keeps me going, yeah its still there. I don't know what it is but when all arrows point to no- I force the issue to yes. I will be okay cause I am a stubborn ass. :)
song: I will not Bow, Breaking Benjamin (explicit)

Feeling a little better

Getting on board with the medications and actually feeling less scared. Praying this will help! I don't have much else to say today. Just I am starting to get away from funkville!
song: BOB, outkast

Scared me enough

So Thursday I decided that I was feeling "well" enough to go to the gym and run. I got about a mile on the treadmil and I got called to the daycare to change a diaper, and then decided by the time I came back I wanted to do bodycombat. So I jumped in. Almost an hour through the class, I had to duck out. I couldn't breathe. Not a normal "oh crap wheres my inhaler", more like "oh no I'm going to puke in public and pass out". I made it to the bathroom, by this point I'm sobbing. I sat down on the toilet with my head in my hands and just cried. I was disoriented. I was upset at myself for being weak, for letting myself quit, and for letting my attack get so bad before I quit. I rested for a few minutes then got my boys to take home. I could hardly get them in the car. Then very alert and scared drove home. By the time I got to the door to my house I really couldn't understand how to unlock the door for a second. This prevoked a second burst of sobbing. I sat out on my porch watching my kids in the sandbox pretty close to hysterical. Its scary to be in charge of other lives when you feel that sick. This forced me to do what I don't like to do. Go to the damn doctors again! I hate telling them I don't feel good or somethings wrong. Infact I wait so long I feel emotional to explain why i'm there.
I went to the doctors today, explained my problems and got some different medications for asthma and allergies. I hope they help and not hinder. Sometimes I feel so challenged I don't feel strong enough to face any new ones.
This episode was not easy for me to share. I thank god that I made it home safe and nothing worse happened.
Listen to: Evanescese, "You"

basement running

Last night I ran in my basement. Its nothing special, I didn't really go nuts even because I'm still recovering from feeling pretty yucky. My lungs are hanging in there though. I really got a get a poster or something in that basement I stared at a speck on the drywall. Um yeah not too exciting. It felt good to actually be moving. I realllllllllly miss running outside. I bought treads for my running shoes yesterday. Wishful thinking I will have some one to baby sit before its dark, but if I get a chance I am shooting out that damn door. I really like to be able to see the scenery move and its cool to be able to run anywhere on anything but I prefer god's treadmil.

Ok, disclaimer, this is lame *blush*. Recently Al Roacher and Merideth Vierra, and even Jarod from subway just ran the New York city Marathon. Watching them finish actually touched me to tears. I really want to do that someday. And then same day watching Hercules, with my son this song also chokes me up in the same respect:
I have often dreamed
Of a far of place
Where a great warm welcome
Will be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be
I will find my way
I can go the distance
I'll be there someday
If I can be strong
I know every mile
Will be worth my while
I will go most anywhere to feel like I belong.....
(go the distance, Hercules Soundtrack)

Its silly. But so am I. Its my dream, and I'm going to do it someday.

uh huh

So friday I went to an urgent care for myself. feeling a problem breathing. i aggrivated my ashtma and was having an attack so i had a nebulizer treatment, and he have me a scrpt for steriods. lovely. so to recap i have exercised 3 times last week. once was i running. i am not supposed to be running for a nother day or so. i don't think i can take much more illness and i am supposed to be training for a race. :(

moving along.....

I really am feeling better still having a cough now and then especially when I exercise. I had to get my inhaler durning class yesterday, thats sucks. I hope it eases up soon. I haven't been running since friday night. my heel was hurting, felt better then no wait i did run monday night. tues body combat, thursday body combat. by rights I should run today/tonight. I probably will. my feet feel better. I know they say if you are using a certain pair of shoes for running they should be for only that but i wore them to my classes this week to help break them in and it really helped they are much more flexible. and i think the blister issue is over too.
we are just shy of 3 weeks to race day. i need to get moving on the training. i just have such a good time in those classes the new stuff is really tough, i actually have sweat come out of my shoes. so i guess i am going to have to reslove to only one :( body combat next week. in my defense the last time I pulled 2 classes in a week i dropped 5 big ones like a sack of potatoes. Its a lot harder to run my life when i do that because simple tasks like going pee is painful to sit, but no pain no gain? right? but I ramble on and on.... running getting serious, back to the program.... ;)