Its all still there....

I find recently becoming more shy about myself. The classes i've been taking are fun, which by the way said I wouldn't then decided to go. Its so hard for me to get going these days. Even lastnight I had a child free chance to get to the gym and run, and until I hit my last mile did I even feel good. This was a new shoe night too, what? Hecks yeah the shoes are great, but I just can't get over myself lately. It comes down too, sometimes all the wieght and size, its all still there. I don't see a difference in my mind, it beats me down. I don't understand myself sometimes. I guess you never really get over body image issues. I am not going to stop ever. If I have to fling myself into that class once a week, and stare at me in the mirror to get over it, I guess I will. I still have 50 pounds to go, maybe thats part of it, this plateau will never end!!!!
I have more to say on my whining issue but theres kids hanging on my legs, I go blank.

thanks for the class paula its fun!

Really just tired.

Golden rods' out, I am feeling not the greatest. its been a week today since a serious run, i worked out thursday but i still wasn't feeling right. Its been a tax on my life just to do normal stuff. I am just tired I think, my kids are getting all boogery too, and whiney we all maybe getting sick. I dont think we'll be doing gym daycare this week, they dont want em wiping boogers everywhere. Husbands gone again, treadmil not set up. I am just going to try to catch up some house work and clean up the spot for this darn thing so again I can say no excuses. But embarassed this week about how much I didn't do. Laziness..... uh.

song: Looser, Beck

Body Combat

Hey that was pretty fun! My only peeve is the mirrors in the room. I feel gross jumping around and being able to see all my goodness flopping around. Something about all the punching gives relief I have been needing. Lots of frustrating crap in my life. I think I'll be coming back to that class I like to throw the big elbow.
This morning (ryans away) the baby woke up at 4 am, oh dang I could hardly sit up. I was thinking I was going to feel fine, yeah waist up is like petrified wood. Good ole running legs still good.
I had NO idea I would like that kind of experience at all, I was pleasantly suprised. Now I am just sore!

The hills

I did a new route lastnight, I ran 3 new hills, i don't have the mileage but it probably was about 3 maybe 4 miles. I am soooo much slower on the hills, i am feeling okay this morning but its definately something i need to wedge in to my running.
I STILL haven't ordered shoes, i am just so busy i keep forgetting then i remember when i get a chance to run.
Oh yeah I am proud of myself the BIG hill by my house, i should call it notorius BIG hill. I didn't stop in my efforts to run up it. A first for this girl< the people that live on the flat part just after it must of thought I was going to need an ambulance. Eyes in your head people this girl's got asthma, and shes fine.

Ipod suggestion: Weightless by ATL

Check check on the list

Yeah treadmill acquired! Finally my house is equipped for the winter. Its in the garage cause I need to clear a childfree zone in the storage room(future gym), but I finally got a good secondhand treadmill for running when its bad out, and gym is not an option. Now I can FORCE my husband to do it too, no excuses. Hon I know you are reading get ready. haha!
I am going to make an appointment this week to get my cholesterol rechecked I hope its improving I am really trying to fix myself.
Tonight i am hoping for the chance to go to the track tonight, Tomorrow we try Body Combat. (this could be bad stay tuned)

Woof.

So I made an awesome dinner lastnight, feeling guilty I decided to run last night. I did 3 miles, decent time, this morning I am sucking Aleve again. That right leg is bothering me again, darn it. I am starting to wonder if its already shoe time again? I know they recommend 200 miles I do between 3-5 every0ther day, Its been 2 months so what is that? Calculator says at the best thats 150miles roughly maximum. I guess I have to take in account my size and the pain I am feeling and say duh. Maybe i'll order them, then keep my aging pair just in case I get mondo blisters again.
Also I snagged a double jogger at a yard sale, before I got sick. Its ready too, so I have no excuse!

Gnarlly Duuuuude.

So No runs since the race, I did a half ass workout at the gym last tuesday, partially from nerves partially from soreness. Well Then Thursay night I got superduper sick with a fever, i guess it was food poisoning but I have barely even been hydrated even today. I lost 10lbs. thinking of running tonight, maybe we'll just go to the gym tomorrow this house is in disrepair.
So I am working on getting my legs back under me, after my gnarly sickness, you don't even want to know what happened.