The last blog of many.

I was out running yesterday day thinking about life in general and I got a beam of sun through the trees. This really was an interesting sight. It was falling leaves, barren branches, green grass, and frost on the ground, I could see my breath, and the sun was warm, all seasons at once. I could hardly see. It was beautiful and also sort of dangerous. I had to turn around for a minute to adjust my eyes, the park looks just gorgeous this time of year. I turned back into the blinding confusing light run my course home, because I needed to go there, home. It would have just been easier to run away from the light but that's not my style.

  I am back to running around like my crazy self. I am working out, and running again. I am back at it. I haven't been blogging because I haven't had anything to say. I have been thinking. I don't have a future really planned right now for a race, even though previous plans stated otherwise. I am becoming a fly by night runner, always trained signing up at the last moment.... I am not injured, and I am sure as hell not quitting.

 I am one pound from my original goal weight of 155. This could happen tomorrow morning. It could happen next week, it may never happen. I may go right past it. I know balloons aren't going to fall from the sky. In fact, I am kinda sad. it's been 4 and a half years.

things I learned from this:
1 Being honest will change your life.
2 If your are uncomfortable with yourself you have no excuse not to try, it's more awkward for everyone else when you won't try things because you feel inadequate.
3 laugh
4 smile no matter what
5 if you are sad you shouldn't eat.
6 if you are scared, anxious, angry, don't eat.
7 food is not a pacifier.
8 fast foot will kill you.
9 human spirit is amazing.
10 consistency is so important. I maintained several times it was so frustrating!
11 any chubby kid can become a marathon runner if they want.

This is my last blog. I am going to leave this up for any one who wants to read my misspelled rants, it was a party the whole way through. Even if only a handful read it I have felt really loved and supported through everything, thank you, I love you.

I do, Love you guys.