doofus

Um okay went to the store to try to help blisters. Bought a "blister treatment" type bandage. Did NOT read directions. Ran with it on, took it off afterwards. Ripped off my whole blister, its raw meat now. A couple days later, read the directions, its not meant to be taken off til it falls of or is soaked off. What a dillhole..... Tonight I run with hamburger friction in my right heel-awesome...
song suggestion: Looser-Beck

UH! Thats what!

Last night my latest experiment, I tried a gatorade prime before a run, lord its nasty tasting. BUT worth it! I ran 4 miles with out stopping on a treadmil at the gym. It was actually fun, I was just thinking to myself, wow look at me go. Definately good for the whole pysche thing.
The blister, its angry the entire back of my heel is gone and open. It doesn't hurt right now cause its bandaged with no shoes on but I have a date with my trainer tonight. yippie skippie. I think I am going to wear the nonmagic shoes and just bike it after trainer time, i gotta do 4 again tomorrow!
I really really recomend sweatybands headbands, its nasty how much they hold. Just wish I didn't look like minnie mouse.
Ipod suggestion: I will not bow-breaking benjamin

Blister in the sun

No this isn't an entry about a Violent Femmes song, I just couldn't figure out a better title with BLISTER in it.
Yoi. My right heel has got a biggie on it. I am running every other day to try to heal the rawness but its getting bigger every time I run. Its not the magic shoes fault. If I just run in the right socks and not walk, its fine, its when I walk I feel the issue. Hopefully my heel with scar up soon, so I don't have to worry about it. haha. yeah right. Other than Blista Blista running is going pretty damn smooth right now, just about to 4 miles a time. Also learning how to listen to my body, after a day on my feet, running in hot humidity, I need to make sure I eat enough. I was really feel depleted yesterday. I still had fun though, infact when i was leaving I saw a turtle crossing the track (silver dollar size) it was dark kinda looked like a rock on the black top, I saved its life with my sunglasses by catapulting it into the grass. I heard those things can give you salmonella I wasn't touching it. Of course the only other person for miles saw me being a dork and gave me a raised eyebrow. That turtle loves me dude I don't care what you think... ha.
Run Song suggestion: Head for the Baracade- Limp Bizkit

who is this girl

I know I said I only can run in the gym.... well now I really don't want to go run indoors if its nice. I feel really different in my new magic shoes and I really enjoy the sunshine and um bugs flying in my face.
Tuesday night after my awesome run, I got in my truck wiped several times with my purple smelly towel drank the rest of my water, and drove home. I stopped my truck in the driveway, I turned it off and looked down to take off my seatbelt, there was a fricken slug on my shirt dead center in between my boobs! Naturally I screamed, freaked, almost forgot to put on the brake ran in the house, holding my shirt away from myself to find ryan. Ryan of course thinks this is hilarious and takes it off of me and then procedes to taunt me with it....Not much a nature girl here.
I don't know what happened but I am just enjoying running on the track, ok maybe I do know what it is.... Last year I started out at that trail walking and like I said before I could barely get around once just walking now I am slow but I am running. Poof. Instant motivation, right now its working. Maybe its a good thing to take some time out of the gym breath different air, stop staring at the "gun show" boys and just fly(figuratively speaking).
Hope its not raining tonight or I will be forced to hit the gym. It probably will since I am saying how much I am enjoying the change....

New shoes!

So after fearing my running was going to kill me I started asking questions. Thanks to my sister in law and my new running book by Dagny Scott Barous(spelled prob wrong) I went to the nearest running store to get fitted from new shoes.
Turns out I was running in really old worn out shoes that never fit in the first place. I felt really large in that store, everything is for serious runners. The staff a young man in college, also a serious runner, was super nice and evaluated my stride. I overpronate. duh, thus shinsplints. So i brought home my lovely shoes and friday morning took my first run in them-magic! No pain! turns out shoes are everything in this sport and um I thought for some reasons the ones I had were fine. So glad i asked before i really hurt myself.
Last night my run was 3.75 miles! In 90 degree heat. Watch out 10k I'm coming for you.

Turns out New shoes of any type will cheer up a woman.....

Just walk it off....

Oh boy there we go. tonight, I ran crappy outdoors again. Stupid girl....I should know by now that I can only handle non-treadmil runs once a week at most by now with my chubby butt. My shins HURT. I couldn't even finish my last mile, I had to limp a shortcut at the track to my truck. I had ryan meet me on the porch and cover my legs in ice.
Ryan really is good about all this exercise stuff. He doesn't do as much as me but he is always making sure I get to go and do. And he's always there to patch me up, or bring me water and an aleve. I feel really bad sometimes about that. He's so good about all that, I have to remember to be nicer.
I did order a book on running, its by a dude but its for women runners about everything. Its even got a chapter how to be injury free. I'll be reading that in all my spare moments you better believe it.
As far as a race, I have no clue at this point. I think I am going to have to hit the eliptical this week or 2 until i feel better, its not as fun as running to me, but I still have 50 bigones to loose. Still formulating a plan for my next race, at this point i think it would be a good way to celebrate the next 20lbs. i dunno
Mentally I am really feeling drained, kindof like when my kid is frustrated when his toys die because they need batterys. He just wants to keep playing and he doesn't care about the solution, just that fun is over for now.
trying to stay positive, looking up treatment tips for shin splints tonight....

Any love comes with pain...right?

Warning I am in a bad mood: If you don't like swears don't read on today.
So trying a 3 mile run in 80 degree heat, the night after you had 3 glasses of wine, and along with pms is NOT going to yield and decent running. I am hurting, and I feel like a slow fatty fat fat. I have been dragging since my birthday. Feeling just tired in general, and wornout. The Big 30 challenge kicked my butt.
I really wanted to run the 3 mile tonight, I had to walk more than I would like. Some times I want to say piss on this crap, it hurts and I am not good at it. I feel like maybe I should get a hobby where I just slam in to a wall over and over and it would probably feel the same. I don't know what I am thinking sometimes. I definately don't belong in a pack of stone cold runners. My legs are stubby, my feet are huge like flippers and we don't even need to talk about my sparetire belly. I guess thats why I do it though, I don't fit in, and anyone who thinks I can't make it can get the finger cause I always make it, eventually. I really need to thank god for my legs, and the ability to try to run. I see so many others at work that don''t have that, they make me work harder and they make me grateful.
Goals this week:
Pick another race to look forward to, buy a book about running.
wow I guess I didn't swear enough for the disclamer, sorry here you go: damn it, shit, piss, ass, asshat, turds, bastards.

race results

I was 79th of 130ppl. With a time of 37.10. I am definatley doing this again soon. I could have done waaaay better had I peed. Dude I wrote 29 on my race form, they put me at 24 so I ran in their catergory! I was 5th in my age group if you count it right.

I am done being technical about that, I totally could have done better, I will next time. I am going to research another 5k for the summer this week. it shall be up soon.....

The big 30 challenge--RESULT

WHAAAAAT? yup 198.6. I did it. I don't believe it.
Its been years since I have had a 1 in front of my wieght! Craziness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am in shock. shockyshockshock.
I have to go get ready for work but I had to tell you first!
Its going to be a great day even if its crazy!
whodat?!

I did it.

So I finished my first race and I really learned a lot.
Lesson 1: pee first. Its not just nervousness, you should pee. I ran the whole stinking 5k with a full bladder.
Lesson 2: pick tight clothing. I had pants that kept falling down. They were tight pants too but when running they will fall down.
Lession 3: Focus is important. I kept looking around, forgetting to breathe.
I had fun though met some cool new people. Ryan and Miles were at the finish, but I ran right past them, they were looking down. I haven't looked up my time yet its not up on the website last time I checked but it was right around 37 min. Just think if I peed first, even faster.
so since my boys didn't get to see me finish a race, i will be doing another one this summer.
wiegh in is tomorrow. we'll see if i met the 30 goal......
win loose or draw i did all i could....

SOOOOO CLOSE

I am going to turn 30 sunday. When I do its going to be another day. The sun will rise and set as it always does. Why do I feel soooo bad? Its just a number right? not to me. Its a kick in the nuts. I am seriously in danger of being one of those chicks that lies about it. When did I stop being young? I know I am not anymore(probably when i got preggers) but I can't pinpoint exactly when i started going out in public looking scarry and not caring. And probably longer since the opposite sex even turned up an eyebrow. Damn thats rough. So I am feeling probably more depressed than I should as you read on. My shoes are filling with cement.
I have been in a major holding patter with my weight this week, probably because I have been running too much. Last night when I got home I was really hurting bad. I was even a little teary. Felt stupid for starting this page, for trying to run, and for giving myself a weight loss deadline. Cause I am stuck at 201.4. Well I was. 200.1 Its sooooo close. I have to remember to eat today, cause i don't want to eat at all now. but i will gain if i don't eat. Definatley no extra anything though, its go time. I only have til sunday morning. I don't know if I will, do I think I can, not really. But I am not giving up til its time to sing. (get it cause i'm the fat laday). I am going to give it all my all and it is what it is sunday morning. Then I will want some cake. Not a big piece, but I deserve something of the chocolate persuasion for these shinanigans.
come sunday, I hope my hard work is enough for me to feel okay to get out of bed reguardless of the scale.
Saturday race: This is for all the people that think I can't do it. Especially me.

I'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready

Tomorrow night is my last run before the race. I can do this. I am really excited, and nervous. I keep typing that over and over. So I looked up The Great Race in pittsburgh, its the end of sept every year and its 10k or 5k. I am going to do 10k but not this year, next year. And get this, there is a "heavy weight" competition if i weigh over 140lbs, i am eligible to win over the 'fat' people. Dude- if I weighed 141 I would run the race in a bikini. There defintion of fat is f'ed up. I still want to run that race though. I wonder if they have an morbidly obese competition, lol. I could do that now... just saying I could smoke people my same weight righ now. I am the lightning of fattness.

song suggestion for your playlist- BOB outkast, good for running

woot.

Tonight I had an awesome run. 3.10miles in 36 min, after my half hour with Tracy the professional buttkicker. I am getting focused to race. I am nooooot a contender to win, oh hahahaha hell no. But I will be able to do it if I can just remember to breathe. I also went and drove the course I will be running saturday. If I am correct, nice run. If I am wrong there will be more hills than I thought.
I am so glad I read running tips online last week, I am icing my legs when I am done and its really helping the serious pain I am getting in my shins. I know what that is.....grrrrr. I don't care. If I run on the treadmils at the gym I dont feel it as much. If I ran once a week this probably wouldn't be an issue. Just think by this time next year< when I drop another fifty pounds, 10k will be attainable.
My dad told me today when I was 5 he ran the great race in pittsburgh. Its 10k, this might be worth investigating. I would love to run the same race 25 years later, but I don't even know if they have them anymore.
I will post pictures of the road kill saturday(me).