Day 8....grrreaaat.

So not really. Second cleanse day, not my favorite thing. And thanks to a brief interruption from mother nature 8 days of cranky limited eating have cause me to break even. (no loss no gain) so in the next 4 -7 days we will be having a happy blog with a 5+ loss i can feel it. Let me tell you i want chocolate and not the kind that comes in a shake flavor from isagenix but i am being strong.

And then yesterday it was over 30 so I went for an outdoor run! It was snowy and wonderful. I did 5.9miles according to nike plus. I stopped counting I was just having fun. It took me 1hr and 2min it was a slower pace for me cause underneath the snow it was ice and i had my ice cleats on but i still was cautious. Also in that time there was a pee break, and i had to walk to get my water bottle into the middle cause i tossed it to far but not far enough to the other side. It was the best run I have had in weeks. I am such an outdoor runner. I don't even care about taking a "nordic pee" which i had to so i did. I love my under armor cold gear. (thanks mom)
I would just like to point out that was almost 10k :) I am getting ready baybah! I am feeling a little sore today but everytime i move and feel it, i am encouraged because I pushed it and did pretty good in my opinion.
so ready for summer!
song of the day ATL, weightless

Oh no he didn't just do that.- (warning swears)

So I got one of my new running books I was setting out to read. I am not going to mention the authors name because he is a giant asshole dick. Its supposed to be a lighthearted funny book about long distance running. Bought it on a lark online. I have never really been this offended by a book before. But I really am today for some reason. In his introduction, he refers to volunteers at the end of a marathon as "rather portly" and "someone who hasn't run more than six yards in the last 20 years". Right there I decided he was a jerk but then he goes on! Basically 245 pages of dung. There's a chapter about finding an over weight city to run in so you can win a trophy. The comments he makes about people really are observations and maybe even true but the tone sucks. Its clear as crystal he thinks hes better than fat people. Well buddy I saw your picture and you're ugly and thats permanent. And since you call yourself a "humorist" I like to inform you, you're not funny and you should pay me for the time of my life waisted reading this.
I proclaim here and now, running is for all of us as humans. Legs are made for going. Go fast and you run, go slow you walk. You don't have to be a glorified spandex natzi to experience the pure joy of running. You can be over wieght and push your self to your limit and you deserve EVERYONES respect for doing it. Thats right EVERYONE even you dickhead trash novel writer guy. I think I'll write a book about elitest snobby runners and how much they deserve to get running injuries. (harsh? mm maybe?) Anyways I think maybe I should write something about all this. I could call it Running Chubby, or The Anti-Runner, or Loose to Me Suckwad.
I don't know but I am pretty jazzed up right now. I am aware my mother reads this blog.
song of the day: Break Stuff, Limp Bizkit

Progress is a bitch

So I am happy to say i lost like 3 whole pounds. wooohoo. (not that much feeling in that though) I am tired. Feeling the burn all the time so to speak. And the other day I blew my nose and almost pooped. Yeah thats the cleansing we are talking about. I did body combat tuesday, wednesday night i did 5k. today its friday morning and I am going to have to make something happen. I haven't figured out where I am supposed to pull that energy out of though, cause my butt's already busy... Not to be crude. Well thats how i'm feeling.
I will be taking measurements every sunday I am on this. My tool husband has a spreadsheet so I will be posting the results. Day 6 and chugging along. :)

Cleansing Day

So today is my first cleanse day on day 3 of my Isagenix 30 day program. Not my favorite thing ever. There is no real eating today. Lots of drinking and these little hockey pucks they call "snacks" But I know that if i try really hard and stick to it, the next few days on the scale shall be transformational. I get pretty emotional on these days primarily testy cause i love to eat and theres no comfort there, aslo i think its how i react to this stuff, that and there is just no exercising because of the fast. I always do pretty good with it and thats if I do it half of the time, so I am going to big guns. I want to see some benefit this time, and so I will. I really think it would be smarter to be lighter when running longer races this summer. If i don't get too much lighter then running those distances ought to do it too. I realize that I may have to modify my diet on long run days and with certain workouts because this diet only warrants 20 mins of exercising calories. But I struggle with that(meaning I'll eat too much), I may cut my workout time to every day for shorter times. I am not real sure yet what i'll do but, I'll be prepared. Some of my workouts I take kids with me, I know I can't be stupid and not eat enough and bite the floor, I wont do that. This is only temporary and shaking it up is good. Last night I jumped on my treadmil and felt tired from the work day and a series of events building from last week so I only jogged a mile then, walked 1 then, I rolled out my mini trampoline and jumped on it for 10 minutes. that was fun and embarrasing cause my bladder aint what she used to be.
I did mess up last week. I ran on monday, then gave the rest of the week to everyone else. I was busy with commitments and weather delayed school and driving to the gym and I let my busy schedule win. by the time there was time left for me it was sunday night i was exhausted, and yelling at my husband. I actually said "I just need to go be alone with my treadmil". Sorry honey, you married a nut. I'll try not to do that again.

New Challenge

Well I am tired of the brick wall diet. It goes no where. Doesn't mean I am done with that diet for ever but today I just ordered a month of Isagenix. Here we go chocolate shakes (roll eyes for effect). I have done this before just at the start of my wieght loss about a year and a half a go and had great results the first month 22 in 30 days (mind you I was a bigger girl then). Since then I have peppered it in with my eating on and off when feeling like I need to lay off food and just clean up. Let me tell you this diet is not for sissys or anyone that could be considered a poser. I am ready though It does make you feel good once you adjust to drinking your meals and the cleanse days are killer. I am hoping for another big chunk of wt loss. Going to kick the crap out of this challenge that is before me, cause how could I let my readers down, all 4 of you... ! I really am into loosing the rest of said weight, longer races are harder the heavier you are. and its great race year. who knows maybe i'll be ready for 1/2 marathon soon!
last week 2 body combats and a run. today a run, tomorrow weather permitting/child permitting another body combat.
Recently perchased all the makings for my warrior dash costume. I fully intend to run that race dressed as the blind melon bee girl. I bought my first tutu at 30 years of age :) I never was the ballet type i had a few classes but then I believe I bit my teacher or something of the sort. Really just so exctied for the dash!
I just got a couple books to read too. Run Like a Mother ( can't remember the author hasn't shipped from amazon yet) and I run therefore I am Insane (also no clue who wrote it either). Excited to get all my goodies.
Today I had on my headphones some PINK, raise your glass

Resolution Run Results

I went to the race. I am aware that inducts me the pyscho hall of fame. I had a lot of fun. I was not expecting it to be 17 degrees. It was though. I was also not expecting hills, which the whole course was "hillay" but i survived. But I am so happy to be done and alive. No more out door events until at least march. And my ears were still hurting that day so I'd say my time was not the best but good for what was happening. oh yeah it was snow covered course too. 35:02:04. put me in 15th for my catergory. There was a crapload of pros there. Everyone looked so aerodynamic and ready. I was wearing 2 of everything and running with my inhaler. I would say thats awesome enough.
I learned from this experience though, and thats its time to train on hills before warrior dash cause I am still sore from the race.
I am proud of myself cause i didn't give up! and its been 2 days and I am not sick! yeah

Eureka?

Well someone pointed out to me that Peurtorican Handfans* could actually agrivate your asthma. Well then I did that a few months ago, yep started having worse attacks since then. The slightest cold and I couldn't do what I normally could and doing other things like working around triggers, the darn cat at work, would put me in a tailspin. Um yeah no more Peurtorican Handfans treatments on my hair. It lasts 3 months and everytime you blowdry you hair it makes a chemical that irritates asthmatics. So I shall be sporting the college girl slob look until I am sure its all gone. What a fool I have been. But even this is just a theory that has given me insane amounts of hope. :)
Maybe I can still get better, and really still run a marathon someday with out pulling a rickshaw of pills and inhalants behind me?
I ran my 5k today at the gym, no scary attack, I needed my puffer and tissues but its a start. and Yeah I think I may race if ryan lets me. Shes back look out!
Song Firework, Katy Perry

* names of the hair product have been changed to save my butt

starting to get ansty

I am feeling better. am I done with my antibiotics? nope. have I been on a treadmil? yep. I really didn't over do it, i really didn't get really sweaty either. I only ran for a bout 8mins at a gentle pace. Do I feel a lot better? yep. I am going back to the gym today? yep. We'll call this a...trail. If I can get through 3 um maybe.... if ....
What if its above freezing? I feel better? Saturday is like 3 days from now..... Ryan is on the fence about this... I don't think he's going to yell.... at me.... We'll see. I really want to go to my race.... we'll see.
btw lost 7 of the 10 already.

nada

So I talked with my doctor. No race saturday :(. My asthma is acting up and I have an ear infection. I am already feeling better on the antibiotics and a new pill for asthma. The problem may continue with my job, that may have to be taken care of. But for now I am trying to relax because at least I am trying something else to get better. He also got me a nebulizer so now I have it incase of a bad attack but I had to go to a store that sells walkers to get it. I now own a machine that my patients at work also use to breathe. they got like 60 years on me. He said the cat was an asthma trigger. He told me to stay out of the cat area at work. I am going to try to recover before I make snap descions. I was siiiick when I had that attack, and i haven't been this sick in a long time. But I have stopped wearing my contacts at work and mostly everywhere cause of allergies too. Its always something. But I will not stop exercising and running. If this shows to be the cause of the scary asthma it will be taken care of. I am a nurse I can find work anywhere.
In light of all the pills, depression, christmas, non activity, and that time of the month I have gained the 10lbs I just lost. Shit shit shit shit piss.
I am on the treadmil as soon as I feel confident enough to do so. Not yet. :(

Getting Bummed

I am still not better. Lungs still aren't cooperating. I guess I feel slightly better but I haven't been able to do any exercise. Its really depressing. I feel fat and sluggish. And most of all SAD. I just want to be better. I am going to the doctor monday. If I run into him at work I will pounce on him for advice(even though thats tacky and i try to never to that) I have no shame anymore. I am on the verge of tears, and this has shaken me.