Getting Bummed

I am still not better. Lungs still aren't cooperating. I guess I feel slightly better but I haven't been able to do any exercise. Its really depressing. I feel fat and sluggish. And most of all SAD. I just want to be better. I am going to the doctor monday. If I run into him at work I will pounce on him for advice(even though thats tacky and i try to never to that) I have no shame anymore. I am on the verge of tears, and this has shaken me.