one run left

last night i ran around the time of race time, it just worked out that way but i can say i am prepared now i guess :P for the time of day.
I did really well for the heat and really being busy during the day. I took 3, 1 minute rest breaks. I didn't time myself for 2 reasons: 1. I don't have a stop watch, i am asking for one for christmas. 2. I don't want to fake the flu and miss the race either, right now i feel slightly confident. i was pretty proud to keep my pace even if it's towards the turtle-side of the lawnmower speed. maybe i should just get a turtle sticker for my back for race day it says i'm not here to beat you just to be amongst you. anyway, I was a cramped up by the time I got home. Definatley not a chance of running today, no danger of overdoing it.
well I was satisfied last night, almost proud. Remember people I weigh more than you, I lot more. Slap on a sack of potatoes in your backpack with some rocks, and then keep up! lol.

No matter how dirty I still suggest Not afraid by emenem

its race week!

Well, I feel enormus. I am not, really changed at all be I feel terrrible about what I ate this weekend, it was busy the stuff was easy and staring at me. I feel huge. I turn that around today, except for the pizza for lunch, going grocery shopping tonight no junk makes it in the house!
I ran friday and I ran sunday. Both okay runs but I am starting to get that 'i feel stupid for signing up for this race' feeling. I did that before, I have to remind myself, read my little bloggy log that I have been putting the time in and I can do this. Its so much more intimidating that I will have people watching me, I don't know why its always the same, I can I will and i'll get done.
Things I plan on doing differently this race:
1. don't run so much this week.- I ran every night except the night before last time, I was pretty wore out last race time.
2. PEEEeeeeee!- hopefully bathrooms nearby with a late race like this. registration 430-530 race at 6 i will be standing around drinking water cause its august, my mission is to evacuate my bladder!!!!
3. I got my fancy shoes.- I ran on my work out shoes last time with serious shin splints.
4. squish socks- eurcerin cream on my heels insdie and out my socks. blister control.
5. Pants that fit- stretchy nylon running shorts, fat or not you need your pants ON to run good.
I have to think about this some more. Trying to practice restraint this week, although I am excited I am trying to save it for the start line. My time for the first race was 37.19 I really hope I have cut a little off of that, I have been working at it all summer. I don't want to be the fastest just my personal best at the time.

running song : I'm not afraid, emenem

I need a treadmil badly

I need to go run like now! I really am getting to the point where its making me cranky if I don't go. I don't know if thats good or bad. Its busy travel season for daddy, and I really do get grandparent support most of the time, but i am whiney today. I wannnna go real bad, and i am afraid it might rain, I can always go to the gym but I really want to go outside.
bottom line, this is my break, I am needing one, daddys not home, oh the humanity. (insert primal scream here)

You strong mommy?

Last night I ran up the driveway to finish my 'hood run, Miles out on his bike watched. I grabbed onto the minivan to stretch and he said "cause you strong mommy"? I don't think that is something I will ever forget. At 3 years old he noticed. Nothing could make me actually feel stronger than that. Then he asked if I was going to push the van (I was in a lunge), he is so cute.
Tonight I worked out with Tracy in the gym, then after I ran 2.5 miles on the treadmil. I would have gone longer but I actually pressed a button on my mp3 player and bought a book on tape on rhapsody, almost tripped, then couldn't get it going again. She suggested a protien increase in my diet and carb decrease for a bit until the weight starts to come off, I am up for it. Going to give it a try.
As far as the scale goes I weight 200 lbs STILL. I was frustrated but then tonight ryan took my measurements. Since may 8th I have lost another 15 inches!!!! the biggest loss was my waist 6 inches. crazy. my boobs are disapearing, i am going to need a training bra soon. I have lost 75 inches overall. my calf measurements have increased. I am still not believing it. So running, its worth it!

lets race

Definatley gonna 5k aug 1st getting into it. did my 3.5 yesterday, going to do a nieghborhood run tonight if weather permitts. that means hills, lots of fun uneven running surfaced hills.
i am happy to say eucerin cream (petroleum based) is great for my shoes i put it on my sock on the inside and out, and it keeps the friction down, better than the runners lube i bought. i am glad too cause i needed a break from beef heels. i wish i had a water station when i run in the hood. i am really liking a drink now and then, i can't bear the thought of a fanny pack for runners yet, maybe next year when i double my competative distance for now i stay thirsty and as cool as i can be.
that stuff probably only comes in small and smaller too, its rough being a curvy runner, you really don't fit it put on a fanny pack and you end up looking like a chubby poser-tool.

As I write, i think how nobody reads this, i am still writing...

There is a 5k10k in beaver august 1st. I think i am up for the 5k. I know I am up for it. Its for the frontline initiative, decent chairty it gives capable vehicles to familys of children with terminal illnesses.
I went to the track early this morning and i could only crack out 2 miles, mother nature has me under her thumb this week, I don't appreciate it or like it, I am hungry tired and blOATED, not to mention usless on the track. I look forward to getting back to normal. I am pretty tired.

new machines

No run lastnight, I worked out with my trainer, tracy. Did pretty good too except for this dip press thing. To look at it its like a pulley thingy for like a chin up and or i needing push up sortof and you use your body wieght. Wow that hurts, It didn't even hurt as bad as I feared my arms popping out of the sockets as I sunk to the floor. Tracy even had to help me, I felt like a little kid... That stupid machine, will have to become part of my routine for strength training, its rough. It reminds me of gym class in highschool, hanging on to the chin up bar for the presidental fittness test, and just dangling even though, I was desperately trying to move some how. That is an excerise this chick is really bad at, and I can't imagine being good at it but i would like to be.
I am super tired. My little one hasnt been sleeping, after a full body strength training session, I typically feel like applesauce with a good nights sleep, yeah I am not getting that much. I am cranky, I feel sluggish. i AM not even typing well, i am slurring my writing for godsake. Will I stop? no. thats for sissies. Maybe an extra rest if i still feel bad tomorrow, but i will keep on going because i still have legs.

Runners lube and Gu

I am so much excited about the runners lube! i put it on my bandaid and on my sock on the outside inside my shoe and my foot didn't get irritated until the last lap. (um yeah the 5TH MILE BABY). Definately a must for me since I seem predisposed to blisters no matter what I do. The last shoes I was running in blistered on that foot for a month. Then when I got in the shower, those blister bandaids sometimes don't want to let go and ripped my ankle open again. yoi.
Then to the Gu. I tried blueberry gu roctaine. Um it was so nasty I had to do a dance around my kitchen and drink water and chew gum too. That stuff tastes wrong on so many levels. I was able to make an extra lap but I did a lot of walking. It was 90 degrees and like 99% humid but i felt wiped and i was getting side stiches more than normally. So GU roctaine gets a thumbs down from me, especially the poop taste. I have another plain gu I will by trying soon, but I will have to pysch myself up for it, maybe i'll get my husband and kids to chant chug it frat boy style so I do it.

Internet woes and runners lube

So I've haven't been on here lately cause comcast isn't really worth the money these days. It never works (my connection) when i have time to blog. The good new is, no i haven't missed a run.
My ongoing whine about the blisters is still happening. I had it all healed, and then i opened it up again, it was enormus and affected my walking for a day the pressure was awesome. Then Its closed almost a giant scab. It kinda looks like a bedsore....its really sexy lets put it that way. So last night I went to the local sporting goods store bought a couple antifriction creams/balms and I will be trialing them once I can run without a bandaid, and even before that on my good heel. I hope I didn't just pay a whole bunch for fancy vaseline.
My largeness has been on my mind lately, with all this running, my body is changing but I am not really loosing wieght all that fast, maybe a plateau but starting to get discouraged a little.

owwwie

So I didn't feel much like running lastnight, I was really sore from doing squats with tracy but I went anyways cause I just really am stupid I guess. At one point I had to walk an entire mile to get the pain to ease up. I didn't count my laps but I think I may have done an extra once I loosened up it was beautiful not humid almost chilly. For a small time I felt really good. When I came home, my beef heel is was bloody-awesome.
Now this morning, oh my god, I must have lactic acid buildup in my thighs. It hurts really bad to sit and to return to a stand. I have to hold the walls to get on the toilet and by the time I get sitting I can't pee because I tense up. I need a major break. No nothing tonight, no strength training, no running, just trying to survive my boys today.
Stupid is as Stupid does