Cause 20 degrees just isn't cold enough for me.

I had a great week for running this week. 4.5 monday, 4.5 wednesday and 8 on saturday! I fit in strength training on friday to. Friday night I had a chance to finally make it to the local running shop that just opened, and of course ended up walking out with a super cool set of nikes and some balega socks(i love love!). I now have a new favorite store. The owner, 35 years seasoned marathoner, Lloyd very smart and helpful! So saturday morning I was feeling ready to try out my new shoes, I actually was so excited I probably stayed up an extra 10 minutes thinking about it. (In mommy time, thats long when laying down).
I managed my longest run yet 8 miles! It was cold and snowy but it just felt great so I kept on going. (then went on to work an 8 hr day on my feet)No one BLISTER> not ONE! Yeap. Love the Nikes. He suggested alternating shoes, so I will not be waisting my NB's, because they do offer more structure(although clunky and ugly in comparison).
Also I tried something else new. The Run Like a Mother Ice Bath! AAAAAHHHHHGGGGGHHHH! Holy crap that is not for sissys. I got in and I immediately wanted to get out. My kids and my husband were in the room so I didn't. But 10 full minutes seemed to be as much work as the run. The good news, I'm not feeling really anything but sore quads and fatigue post run, so long days shall be chilly chub days. But I have to say I have to talk to myself during saying , "sit down! i want to run a marathon. I don't want an injury. Sit DOWNnnnnn!" It was shocking. I do have to say agitating the water, like my son was doing to play with ice cubes makes it painful. Attached is a picture and video of my frightful event! Don't mind the thighs, its all a work in progress, and i know its a little too sexy for some!
proud of me for pushing it....
Song: Ice Ice Baby, Vanilla Ice

I feel my age

I got a little ambitious last week. ran 4 1/2 monday, wednesday same. then thursday did body combat. During the class I felt myself pull a muscle in my back/hip area. It was a new place for a pain. The next day was terrible and it ended up being an outing that was scheduled for 2 months with my old high school lunch table girl friends. One of who it was 15 years since the last time I saw her. I went but I wasn't feeling it. I wore heels because I suggested we all do it, I was already getting teased for suggesting we be girly. It really wasn't bad after I had stretched and had cocktail or too. Due to arrival time home at 3:30 and the kiddos need to wake me I got approximately 3 hours of sleep. I had to work the next day. How awful. Pain was terrible. I didn't run at all during the weekend for my "long" day. By the time I started to feel human again thank goodness Ryan was home on monday because of a holiday, I went to the track in the slush about 41 degrees not bad. But I was still all full of hangover and sorry, but also poop. Busy weekend at work with severe back pain and you'll hold it too. I ran one mile, decided i wanted something from the truck, realized I had lost my damn keys! So I did a lap 1mile around walking slower than I would looking down for my damn keys. I found them like right where I left the track to get to my truck. What is funny this is the same vehicle that has the keyless i got locked out before and it still doesnt work. So I ran the rest of 3 miles, aggravated. During that mile walk I was calculating how bad it would be to just dig into the highway and run home with my water. I am not sure how long it is probably 5 miles up hill. When I got done I came home didn't feel any better (mentally) but my back seemed to loosen up after my run. This morning its back to being tight but not painful. I plan a treadmill run tomorrow if I can get out, or the dreaded basement treadmill if I can't.
It is almost kind of funny how much going out with the girls affected me. I officially don't have time for that garbage. I didn't over indulge on cocktails either, which I used to do, I just cant handle the staying up late. If we ever go anywhere together again, I request an early departure, or maybe a different type of outing. I don't think I would say never ever but its going to be years before I feel the need to go along again. Not to mention being almost the oldest group there. You had the babies, then us then, the old and scarys. Some kid yelled to us while we were getting to the car "If you're not that sexy, where sweat pants next time k?" Little bastard. Probably there with a fake ID has no idea how good we all look, probably still doesnt eat veggies yet, or have his own place. I felt like I looked pretty, whether that was directed at me, I don't know but if it was, you know what you can do with yourself.
March 19th is my next 5k. I think if the back keeps staying stiff in the mornings I am going to just do the running thang until after. (with a touch of weights if i can force myself)After my next long day I am going to try the RLAM tip of the icebath. Its either the kids tub with bath toys and crayons or my beautiful big tub that needs cleaned out i have been using it for storage because manda likes a nice hot bath but doesnt get time.

Song: Hate On Me, Glee CAST

oh Sh#t!

So today I did what started out to be a treat run, 40 degrees and climbing, midday track all melted. I got through 4 pretty decent ones then all of the sudden.... 'oh no I have to poop real bad'. Exactly one of the reasons why I run down at the track most of the time is you have your choice of 3 toilet stations. All foul and disgusting in there own right but I have about a 10th of the bladder I used to see, so I prefer it down there. Also I am not worried about being hit by a car and in daylight I turn up my turns. But really, pooping there? Honestly I don't think I can. I must be doing better with fueling my machine because my food has been running through me for days. I had no idea of the sneak attack, never happened to me before. I actually went through it in my head.' Well I guess I am going to have to go at the next bathroom, maybe I'll sacrifice my under armor gloves and just go buy new. ' I started obsessing about it. Started imagining myself pooping down my leg, 'what would i do with my compressing shorts?' well i'm a half a mile from the van so i'll make it just listen to your tunes and relax. Well wouldn't it be appropriate for all the swearing songs I like in my player to all say the word Sh#t. Or in someway or another remind me of my impending doom. I made it to the van, and made it home. I guess as I get closer to THE HALF mileage this will be a normal thing.... and I will suck it up, and then blog about it later.
a side note; great to see the golden oldies back at the track, no there is no threat of slippage and breaking hippage. But we must remember stop bathing in perfume. Stop your god forsaken smoking. And left is for runners damn it!Some times it can irritate me to almost yelling "why do you have to be so darn old?" but then i remember, they probably are afraid of peeing their pants and pooping by a sneak attack too. So I just wave and huff out "morning", they are dealing with enough. :)
song of the day: Under Pressure, David Bowie

new shoes , seriously

I love my New Balance. But I got a meaty blister last night. Its not open yet. YET. I really look awful in all other shoes. I notice my toes are kinda getting scary too. Oh well. Still got in 4 and a half beautys.
Run Like a Mother was awesome. I can't put it down, almost done!
My new favorite song is; Love like Woe, The Ready Set.

Is there a prize for fattest marathoner?

Yeah, I just really don't care anymore. Yeah there is 43 pounds staring at me all the time but they will just have to take a number damn it. Its getting nice outside...I don't have time to starve now. I am going to be eating to run not to look any better. I have kind gone through another layer of acceptance. I think loosing more weight will just be great but I'm pretty great how I am too. I started back on food infact I allowed myself a peice of cake this weekend too. I will keep working at it but the drastic crap has to stop. Really it was never about looks. It was never about anybody else either.
So I did start weight training. i did legs and a run thursday, friday arms and bike(very abrievated because my children kept pooping in the daycare eventually gave up and ran out of diapers) and saturday and icy 29 degree 4.5 miles, i am not sure 7.7 is what nike plus said. I wasn't really going for speed just not falling on my dupa. it was powder snow with what seemed to be crisco-greased ice. It was fun and I wasn't the only runner. But apparently the only one with my spikes on. Really? thats playing with fire, they almost fell a lot. Its funny saturday, one of the more fit runners actually kept pace for a minute to say hi, what do I do, spit on my arm. What a freakin goober.... It figures. They pretended they didn't see and then took off down the crisco track. :)
I know my last post was a little dark, but I am feeling better with each step down my "road". I'll figure something out. Maybe training for the half will help me burn some more off. But I am for the most part happy with me. I am just a numbers gal it would be nice to say I did it for once. But the stop watch numbers changing seem to get my attention more!
Starting to read run like a mother, it FINALLY came! New shoes are here too. And I ordered new sweaty bands, mine where getting funnnnnkaaaayyyy. I am so ready for spring. Bring it on.

song: Aretha Franklin, Respect

I give up.

So I ate dinner tonight. I am tired of feeling like shit. Which I have been this week. Ever since I did the 7 miles I felt build ups of lactic acid all over my body. I have been flushing all I can with water. Monday was rough, Tuesday I worked out not feeling it, today absolutely painful. And I gained 2 lbs back. Seriously I am done. You know I am open to suggestions at this point. I need to loose 43 more pounds. Besides actually chopping of flesh I am at a loss. So I am going back to the diet the dietican gave me, that I have been stalled on forever, and I am just going to roll with it. I love exercising, I would rather feel good doing it, and finish with a smile.
I am usually all smack talk and jokes, I don't have any today. I am discouraged and pissed off. I am just going to be a runner and if I look like this than that's what I look like. I am happy with my abilities, really I am proud of that. I am not going for hot stuff. Just healthy stuff. I want to be the number I should be once. I am a firm believer if you practice, persist, and be patient you can achieve anything. I just really am not feeling it today. I think feeling awful helps, no more hungry bitchy manda. I can do this, I am just going to have to think of something else. Its hard to do hang yourself out there alone. I really do feel alone sometimes, I am not fat anymore, but I am not fit looking, and I am not thin. So putting in laps I am strange as a runner, I am not a tooth pick. And at the gym I am always the biggest girl my age. Its lonely. Most days Its cool and I can stay positive, but today I feel like I failed. 30 days of my life was too much to ask i guess. I said myself, I only have 20 mins of daily calories....i screwed up with my hour workouts, now I am hurting and I need a massage. And I missed out on some awesome food I cooked and never ate. I am not sure where to go from here. I just hope i can forgive myself and dust off tomorrow and get moving!
Song: Ben Folds, Landed

Day 15.

Well I had a pretty good week. I am banking a good wt loss of 4 lbs now since the start. I worked out tuesday, thursday friday and sunday.
Sunday I ran 7 miles outside. It was actually really fun. I did sustain acouple annoying injuries. I ripped open an old gouge/rubbmark from my sports bra, made it bleed. I have a blister on the arch of my left foot and my ankle/achilles aches on the left. I iced it and then i have wrap on for support today. I am taking it easy until it feels better. I HAVE to cause now I am thinking seriously about a Half Marathon. I am up to 7 on my long days and I finished with a smile. I think by the end of summer I should be either dead or ready for a half. Not sure of the venue yet, but shopping for a race.
I am going to be running in the march 19th race here in chippewa. That should be a fun little 5k. :)
I also got a deal on my running shoes 2 pair for like 84 bucks. usually 100 a pair sweeeeet. its like time for new shoes too, since my feet are starting to hurt again. That couldn't have come at a better time.
And now its story time: I learned a lesson on sunday and almost got myself into big trouble. I had been running with a cough drop in my cheek to coat my throat so it wouldn't get so raw running in the cold. Now the nurse side of me says thats not safe, better be careful. Well I learned my lesson, never will i run with anything in my mouth again. I inhaled it, and very breifly, like a half a second I was choking, It popped right out thank god. I really couldn't have been stupider. and that is lesson learned, and sharing it so maybe i will prevent someone else from being as stupid. (at the race in jan there were lots of people running with cough drops.)

song stuck in my head: Cee lo Green, Forget You.