I have never been cool

Sometimes you just can't be graceful. I am rarely graceful at all in fact. As I struggle to adjust into my new position as working mom and now full time employee, I am anything but graceful. I am feeling a little out of place. Actually I feel garbage-esc. I mean I had a bad day, things really have actually been busy but going really well, I am en-route to happy routine land.

 I think a positive list would do me some good. An Amanda is good enough smart enough and doggonit people like her list of attributes... get ready for cheesy nerdiness.

Deep thoughts, By Amanda
1. I am a cool mom. I go camping, I am going to a monster truck show, I carry a matchbox car in every purse and or coat of mine, I think fart jokes are okay and welcome in appropriate company, me and hubbs do a mean beat box version of ChicaChica Boom Boom at bedtime too.
2. I am a scrappy old gal. I do not easily give up. I get knocked down, I get emotional, I whine, but I will not go away.
3. I am hilarious.
4. I try to dance to my own beat. Sometimes I get a little lonely out in left field but I love being original.
5. I am a fantastic friend, good chance I have been praying for you.
6. 23-25% body fat and dropping. yeah. working on it just like brushing my teeth its routine for health.
7. I can run circles around you. Really I get up a 4 every other day I get up at 5. If I am not working out i get up at 5 and  I still pack 4 lunches, dress 3 people and commute 2 kids to 2 different places, and myself to work and then I do it again afterward and I still cook and we rarely eat out. I fall asleep right after the kids usually.
8. I have marathon in the blood. I don't like to flash my crazy to everyone now, but if anyone can see passion in that, then you understand.
9. I would do anything for my kids. ANYTHING.
10. I am ridiculous, this is hard to make a nice list and not insult myself on each line too. I can't take a compliment.
11. I blog when I feel like a dork. like right now, why I think it is some sort of magic crap storm umbrella I will never know. Oddly enough I go back and read and I still think I am a dork....
12. I have never met ice cream I didn't like.
13. I can sing. I really haven't in public for years. But I can, some how I got shy. I have always liked musicals, it's not easy to duplicate any excitement relayed through real live people lifting their voices together.
14. I worry about everything. Even if I am wearing my clothes in proper rotation. The older I get the more of the freak I do.
15. I am a tomboy. Really don't like frou frou things and lacey crap. I will wear pink but don't think for a second I picked it out, or that when I first moved in with girl roomates in college I new how to curl my eyelashes or what an eyelash curler was. Daughter of a beautician....I know see #10.
16. I am a fantastic dancer. 2 step? no. square dance? hello-no. I mean club dancing, it's no talent really but I got moves.
17. I can do oragami. Only a crane, but I am really stinking good at them.
18. I can't hold my liquor. 2 drinks, and the tank is full.
19. I wanted to be Mary Lou Retton when I was 7, until I fell on the balance beam and caught myself with my crotch.
20. I actually like myself for the first time really ever. Maybe not today especially after the series of events that have played out, but I am happy, I like who I am, and I am in a good spot right now.

okay maybe that ought a do it, tomorrows a new day, the good thing is we all wake up and get to start over. Here's to tomorrow, lets make it a good one, better than today!!!